Now That I Am Forever With Child

Now That I am Forever With Child

- Audre Lorde

How the days went

while you were blooming within me

I remember each upon each--

the swelling changed planes of my body

and how you first fluttered, then jumped

and I thought it was my heart.

How the days wound down

and the turning of winter

I recall, with you growing heavy

against the wind. I thought

now her hands

are formed, and her hair

has started to curl

now her teeth are done

now she sneezes.

Then the seed opened

I bore you one morning just before spring

My head rang like a fiery piston

my legs were towers between which

A new world was passing

Since then

I can only distinguish

one thread within running hours

You, flowing through selves

toward You.

--

Happy fourth birthday, our precious Julian. The world will never be the same.

Chicky Chick and the great big eagle

I'm not gonna lie. I'm posting these on our site because Julian can watch them here and not on YouTube. *Because* on YouTube the Angry Birds videos also pull up a video with a guy missing the back of his head. It's gross.