Now That I Am Forever With Child

Now That I am Forever With Child
- Audre Lorde

How the days went
while you were blooming within me
I remember each upon each--
the swelling changed planes of my body
and how you first fluttered, then jumped
and I thought it was my heart.

How the days wound down
and the turning of winter
I recall, with you growing heavy
against the wind. I thought
now her hands
are formed, and her hair
has started to curl
now her teeth are done
now she sneezes.
Then the seed opened
I bore you one morning just before spring
My head rang like a fiery piston
my legs were towers between which
A new world was passing

Since then
I can only distinguish
one thread within running hours
You, flowing through selves
toward You.

Happy fourth birthday, our precious Julian. The world will never be the same.

Chicky Chick and the great big eagle

I'm not gonna lie. I'm posting these on our site because Julian can watch them here and not on YouTube. *Because* on YouTube the Angry Birds videos also pull up a video with a guy missing the back of his head. It's gross.